it still amazes me how Caleb just kept blaming everything on you. making you think you were the problem, and then when you tried to be what he wanted he found a way to be angry about that too. I kept thinking of you waiting for him outside, upset, angry, embarrassed just wanting to get the f out of there and him reprimanding you like a child. I hate him more and more each chapter! You write so well and I do hope writing is therapeutic for you too. i look forward to each new chapter! so grateful you are in a better place, sending love ❤️
He was very good at wording things and twisting and I can’t really do it justice. It is actually very therapeutic. Thank you for your beautiful support x
Another amazing chapter! I'm always struck by the thought of a willing participant versus not willing. For me fantasy versus reality. And I can see the seediness that most of these things maybe all are. I didn't even know what an inverted pineapple was until last year 🤣
You do an amazing job of helping the reader to understand your internal world 💗
Eva! Every week as I eagerly await the next instalment, I feel awful for enjoying what was your reality. My skin crawls at the things you were subjected to, especially as your want for it to work is so clear. I feel so heartbroken for that version of you, and so glad you are here now <3 this instalment was by far the most uncomfortable, the moment where you finally felt enjoyment being ripped away so instantly was SO unfair. I hope writing this is incredibly healing to you. Also, separate to the content; you are a fantastic writer. There were so many beautiful lines in this. As always, thank you for sharing.
Oh, that means so much coming from you. Honestly, it’s the raw honesty in your writing that pulls me in more than anything else. You put the real feelings on the page, even the unflattering ones, and that’s exactly what I’m always reaching for too. I want to be honest even when it’s embarrassing, especially when it’s embarrassing. Thank you for these beautiful comments. They landed right where I needed them. You’re awesome xx
'The quiet, depleted capacity of a woman who has stopped believing she’s worth defending and so simply learns to withstand. I had mistaken my own erosion for grit, and I’d been proud of it.' - this speaks volumes!!!
Again another amazing installment and as the story gets more sordid and uncomfortable it becomes both more enticing and exciting to read! Im just still so very sorry this was your reality! You did all you could with what you had and it was still never enough! This is so sad and i hate reading how you lose yourself even more within each chapter....again i am glad you are in a better place now but still so very sorry you had to endure this!
Your ability to paint a picture when you write is so impressive. I always feel like I’m right there witnessing everything in real time. The reference to the guy and the P. Diddy documentary made me LOL! 😂 I could picture him so clearly! As usual so many good quotes, but this one stuck with me, “The version no one ever told me I was allowed to be.” It took me back to moments in my life where I felt the same. 💜
it still amazes me how Caleb just kept blaming everything on you. making you think you were the problem, and then when you tried to be what he wanted he found a way to be angry about that too. I kept thinking of you waiting for him outside, upset, angry, embarrassed just wanting to get the f out of there and him reprimanding you like a child. I hate him more and more each chapter! You write so well and I do hope writing is therapeutic for you too. i look forward to each new chapter! so grateful you are in a better place, sending love ❤️
He was very good at wording things and twisting and I can’t really do it justice. It is actually very therapeutic. Thank you for your beautiful support x
Another amazing chapter! I'm always struck by the thought of a willing participant versus not willing. For me fantasy versus reality. And I can see the seediness that most of these things maybe all are. I didn't even know what an inverted pineapple was until last year 🤣
You do an amazing job of helping the reader to understand your internal world 💗
so true - fantasy versus reality were almost always completely nothing alike. Thank you so much for continuing to read. Appreciate it so much 💕
Eva! Every week as I eagerly await the next instalment, I feel awful for enjoying what was your reality. My skin crawls at the things you were subjected to, especially as your want for it to work is so clear. I feel so heartbroken for that version of you, and so glad you are here now <3 this instalment was by far the most uncomfortable, the moment where you finally felt enjoyment being ripped away so instantly was SO unfair. I hope writing this is incredibly healing to you. Also, separate to the content; you are a fantastic writer. There were so many beautiful lines in this. As always, thank you for sharing.
Oh, that means so much coming from you. Honestly, it’s the raw honesty in your writing that pulls me in more than anything else. You put the real feelings on the page, even the unflattering ones, and that’s exactly what I’m always reaching for too. I want to be honest even when it’s embarrassing, especially when it’s embarrassing. Thank you for these beautiful comments. They landed right where I needed them. You’re awesome xx
'The quiet, depleted capacity of a woman who has stopped believing she’s worth defending and so simply learns to withstand. I had mistaken my own erosion for grit, and I’d been proud of it.' - this speaks volumes!!!
Again another amazing installment and as the story gets more sordid and uncomfortable it becomes both more enticing and exciting to read! Im just still so very sorry this was your reality! You did all you could with what you had and it was still never enough! This is so sad and i hate reading how you lose yourself even more within each chapter....again i am glad you are in a better place now but still so very sorry you had to endure this!
Looking forward to the next as always 🤗🤍
You are beautiful x it was sad . I wish I could tell myself then what I know now. Hope you are going so well lovely xx
Your ability to paint a picture when you write is so impressive. I always feel like I’m right there witnessing everything in real time. The reference to the guy and the P. Diddy documentary made me LOL! 😂 I could picture him so clearly! As usual so many good quotes, but this one stuck with me, “The version no one ever told me I was allowed to be.” It took me back to moments in my life where I felt the same. 💜
Hahah awww thanks so much Melinda.. oh boy he was something else. !!
xoxo thank u
I don’t understand how I missed this - it’s not even Monday 😂
I’m on it (soon - tonight - defo)
I just need to mentally prep, say a few prayers to the big man upstairs, ensure the room is well ventilated and the tranquilizers are close by…
Oi! Ha