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Man With No Name's avatar

Caleb's persistent pressure really gets to me. I don't want to attack him because you don't need me to tell you anything you already know or feel (or don't).

You must have been so exhausted and broken down by it all to agree to the arrangement with Justin. It grinds my gears. 🙃

Caleb manipulating the situation by ghostwriting the responses his rehearsed messages. And becoming friends - thats proper fucked.

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR -

Man With No Name's avatar

but seriously 50 chapters - thats loads - do you mind writing about 30 for me please - lol -

i've managed to do fuck all for 2 months - because I have a great ability to do nothing on here instead - lol

Eva Solen's avatar

30 sounds better

Eva Solen's avatar

It’s a grind gearer for sure. Thank you as always xx

Man With No Name's avatar

I can’t believe I’m at chapter 15 - that is like unheard of - last time it happened - I’ve not even got there in my own book - lol -

Chapter 15 for me is usually chapter 1 × 12 - and chapter two first two pages x 3

🤣🤣

Man With No Name's avatar

How much chapters is in the book?

Eva Solen's avatar

I’m not sure.. was about 50 but maybe less now. Impressive you have lasted this long!!

Man With No Name's avatar

a sentence never associated to me in more ways than one…

Notes from the Hill's avatar

Caleb gets a little creepier with every chapter. It honestly reminded me of college guys “sharing” a girl who may or may not have wanted any part of it, then gaslighting her into thinking it was what she wanted too. What hit me hardest was how lonely and disorienting that must have been, especially with the person who was supposed to be your safe place and protector instead offering you up in what felt like a trade. And there you were still trying to be what he wanted, still thinking you were somehow the problem. Great chapter. I’m really looking forward to the rest, and hoping the crash landing was not too catastrophic.

Eva Solen's avatar

we humans are so complex.. thank you for your beautiful words and reading and understanding x

The Journal of Rooted Growth's avatar

As always, an excellent chapter. Bringing up the part of enjoying being desired is just being human. But the reflection afterwards is the importance. ❤️

Eva Solen's avatar

Thank you lovely x so true

Melinda Velasquez's avatar

Riveting and always for me revealing in a way that seems connect to common threads laced with the type of shame I’ve experience in my most private thoughts and reflections. Shame can only fester if it remains in the dark. Bringing it out into the light and sharing it with others takes away its power. I hope that is your experience. Much love to you. 💜🌟

Eva Solen's avatar

100% and well articulated xx 🙏💕

HealinLayers's avatar

Yes exacatly without the bonus income 🙄😭 bless you and thank you i am okay, i will be fine and yes it just stings a little but i will get over it lol thank you so much though you lovely lady 🤗🩷🌸

HealinLayers's avatar

Well i think this is getting interesting but also even more sad 😞 it reads almost like a lady being 'pimped' out and that is absolutely awful when the 'pimp' is your husband! God bless you hunny, i can clearly see the end of your marriage. It is such a shame that he didn't see he was the cause of it and he was the person slowly dismantling it!

As always i look forward to the next installment! Thank you again for sharing such a personal story with us! Sending you all the love in the world 🩷🌸

Eva Solen's avatar

Thank you lovely lady.. love is blind both ways !! 🙈it was in hindsight definitely a lot like being pimped out but with no bonus income!! Hope you are going well 🥰 I read your rejection post and wasn’t sure what it was about but sending you big love - it feels the worst but it’s always temporary.. don’t let it take you down xxx